To my unborn children

Hey. This is Vic and  I’m 23 years old. As you read this letter let us assume that you’re in the future. Let us assume that I’m married. Let us assume that you’re reading this to your unborn children, too.

This letter is dedicated to my beautiful unborn children. I made this letter to let you (my unborn children) know that as your future father, I’ve been through a lot of pain and anguish before i met your mother. I wanted you to know that before me and your mother got married, we’ve been fighting for our love for you. We’ve always wanted to have a good family. I wanted you to know that before I enter marriage I made sure that I’m ready for this lifetime commitment and responsibility. This letter is all about you.

In several years from now, I’ll meet your mother and get married and after such time you’ll be born in this world. When I was a teenager, all I did was exploring. I have discovered my skills and talents. I’ve discovered that I have passion in writing and music and art. And believe me, it was my greatest experience of all my teenage years. I also made mistakes, when I was fifteen, I entered into a relationship and ended up broken. It was a mistake, but turned out to be my biggest turning point of my life. After the breakup, I was able to change myself into a better and better person. I was able to grow. I’ve met the right people to help to grow. My beautiful children. I want you to be so smart when you go on your teenage years. That’s that time of your discovery and being a teenager is fun, I’d like you to have fun. Teenagers aren’t suppose to enter an exclusive relationship because this is the time to discover what you want and what you can do. This time is only for youYou have to make the right choice in order to grow as human being. Please, be smart my beloved children.

As for my  brave son. When you get old enough, I will teach you how to be a gentleman. I will teach you how to treat your mother and sister right. I will teach you how fight for your love ones. I don’t want you to be passive but I want you to be an active man. I don’t want you to be silent but speak when you don’t want something or see something that is not right. I want you stand for your right. Fight what is right. I want you to be responsible and loving man because someday you’ll get married and you’ll lead a family. Be brave and be courageous. We’ll discover your masculinity and I will do my best to be a good role model to you

As for my beautiful daughter. When you reach your teenage years, you’ll become a breathtaking beautiful woman. Boys will hit on you because of your exuding beauty just like your mother. But I hate to break this to you, I won’t let anyone to do that. I’ll be your temporary knight. I will treat you like a princess because you have to build your standards first before choosing a man. I will help you to choose your man because there are men who are bad at treating women and will take advantage of you when they had the chance. You are special and you deserve a good man. I want you to be smart woman at the same strong woman. Oh my little sweet daughter, I wouldn’t manage if I see you one day crying because somebody took advantage of you. I promise you this, when the time is right, your dreams will be given to you. Your longings will be fulfilled. Be strong and be courageous. I will do my best to be a good example to you.

I promise you. I will take care of you. I will be a good father to you. I love you my children.

Amen.

 

For my viewers. Thanks for reading.

Muntinlupa City, Philippines

Feb. 25 2016 11:33pm

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Perfectly lonely

Hey guys. It’s Vic here. I write a lot about life and love and hope. In other words, I’m a poet. But do not expect too much because I write for my enjoyment. There’s an inspiration why i wrote this one. It’s something so personal which is why I won’t be able to share the other details. I do not want to ruin everything for my future. I want it to be preserved. It’s a love poem because I’m in love. Love is all I know, It’s terrifying but exciting. It makes me so nervous but I love it. That’s love.This poem is called ” Perfectly lonely”.

 

Perfectly, your words inspire me
You make me nervous in a good way
I know you’re not looking for anything
But I’m perfectly lonely waiting for you

I’m perfectly lonely because my heart belongs to you
I’m perfectly lonely here waiting to keep you
Perfectly lonely because there’s no one else
Just you.

Perfect is the sunshine when I see you
I have nothing to do with it, it’s perfect
I just can’t keep it silent, I want to shout
I’m perfectly lonely here waiting for you

I’m perfectly lonely because all I want is you
Perfectly lonely because our time isn’t ready
I’m perfectly lonely now
And I’m perfectly in love with you

 

So, there you go. tomhd-1

 

Thanks for reading…

 

Muntinlupa City, Philippines

09:01pm Feb. 23, 2016

Things I normally enjoy when I’m alone

Hey. I want to know how you spend your time when you’re alone? What do you usually do when you’re alone? Do you regularly spend your “Me Time” or go and do some stuff like you don’t normally do? Well. People have a lot of ways how to spend their time. I’ve read blogs and articles about how people do to make alone awesome or productive in a way, better.

I made a list and thought about the things I normally do when I spend my time alone at the same I enjoy.

  • Writing something on a paper or blogging This is something not new to me. I’ve been writing letters, poems and blogs for years and I’m telling you it helps a lot with my way of thinking. It develops how I express myself through writing. My brain is like a river of thoughts. I think a lot often. It’s crazy when you don’t express your thoughts so I think putting it into writing would really make a difference.
  • Taking a walk in total disconnection- I love walking all the time. What do I mean In total disconnection? I walk without anything in my pocket. I totally make disconnection with my phone. If you’re having trouble with this, try to download OFFTIME in Play store if you’re an android user. This application helps you to disconnect. It does auto-reply to your messages when somebody made a contact with you. Also, it allows you not to use applications and blocks them in operation so you’ve got choice but to leave your phone behind, it also doesn’t allow you to use your phone until the time is over depends on how you set it up. Heading back to walking. Walking allows you to have the time to think things through. Where do you take a walk? It may be in the park, garden, downtown, malls. Everywhere as long as you’re able to think about stuff and life. Don’t forget it helps our health, too. It’s good for the heart!
  • Sitting somewhere quiet with nothing. Just Sit-  I’m pretty sure you do this every time. I mean, come on, admit it, sometimes we love doing nothing. We sit and feel the moment as the air hits our body and face. It’s relaxing. Sit and be alone. It can be your bed, your roof and some places you want to go alone.
  • Having an affair with a coffee in a coffee shop– Coffee is my favorite drink. You know, it allows me to think without a fail. And believe it or not, I enjoy the sound of people talking around me, not because I hear what they say (totally not my intention to listen to their subjects) but because, even though I’m alone in my table, I know I’m not alone. You get the picture.
  • Get all suited up and enjoy having nowhere to go- Yeah! who doesn’t want to get suited up. I mean, it makes you look good! I do this rarely but I put it anyway. When you make yourself look good, it boosts somehow your confidence. It’s true! When you’re suited up you’re like a powerful man.
  • Dancing- Yes, you might not believe it but I love dancing! I dance only in my room, or my spare room at the roof deck that has a big mirror so I could see myself dancing. My friends doesn’t see me as a good dancer which is why I never dance in front of my friends. Lol. I make my own dance steps and sometimes the embarrassing ones. Yeah. That’s the stuff. I’m a terrible dancer, that’s the fact. I admit it. I still dance, though. 🙂
  • Singing while playing musical instrument– If there’s dancing, of course there is singing. I love singing. Sometimes, I sing in a room that can produce echo/reverb. It’s my way of distressing myself. I play my guitar more often. I just love music.

I’d love to share everything on my list but I have to cut it out for some reason. 🙂

What do you do when you spend your time alone? 

 

 

Feb. 11, 2016

8:52pm

Muntinlupa City, Philippines.

 

My seasonal type of depression

In my country, rainy season starts on March. But today is only February and it is raining already. There is something in the rain that makes me really sad. I have no idea why. Yearly, I always have this seasonal depression, I always stay up late these days and couldn’t get to sleep. The strange thing is, mostly I feel lonely without knowing the reason why.

My depression period usually starts on April to July. And one thing, the month of May is my most hated month because that was the time my mom left to Chicago for work. Obviously, I feel terrible when May comes, and as you all know that rain pour down repeatedly. I just hate rain even though it cools the surrounding but hey, you can’t go out hanging out with your friends and you just stay at your homes.

I hate it when this time comes, I don’t remember how I past the times I went thru my depression. I guess, all people have this kind of feeling. I know, they do because they’re people, too. Now, I’m trying to figure out how to make myself busy.

I don’t want to avoid  my depression because I feel like it has to be felt. 

 

Photo below, I captured it after the rain.

Muntinlupa City, Philippines

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